It came and it went. Well, there's still an hour and 10mins to go, but unless a birthing miracle happens I think it's a safe bet to say she's late.
It's been a hard day for me today. I've been really emotional and close to tears all day long.
I'm tired and I want her out.
I slept badly and woke up to Lilly in the most painful, ridiculous position ever. It took me ages to get out of bed, and just as long to stand upright. It was so painful! So yeah, not a great start to the day.
I (stupidly, I know) feel guilty that Mark's taken this time off of work and she's late. Feel like it's my fault. I know she'll come when she's ready.
Actually, i know she's not even late yet seen as today's her DD, its just what with us thinking we'd need a caesarean 2 weeks ago, it kinda feels like she's late now cause we had a date in our heads.
Mark is amazing.
He's so so excited about meeting her and being a dad.
He's put up with all of my mood swings the past few months, and the last month he's been extra brilliant. As things have got harder for me he's been really looking after me. Giving me feet rubs, head rubs, extra cuddles.
We go together to take the dogs out twice a day and he walks extra slow even tho I know he really hates walking slow. He happily just takes them by himself too if I don't feel up to it and he deals with them all the time when we're at home.
Whenever I'm sad he'll properly chat to me about what's wrong and talks me round. I'm so lucky.
Right now I'm laying in bed and Lilly's moving round like an alien. I don't know how she has any room in there! I'm huge.
Anyway. We'll see what tomorrow brings.
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So in the next 14 days at some point you will get to meet Lilly. There's a deadline. 2 weeks. And you'll be holding her warm and snuggly with the little noises newborns make. And it will all be worth it. That's all you have to wait. Anything up to 2 weeks. Keep that thought. 14 days. That's all. I know it's hard... REALLY. You'll both get there. xxx
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