Wednesday, 22 June 2011
Sunday, 19 June 2011
LOADS of news, absolutely no time to tell it. Pics for Alana <3
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Tuesday, 14 June 2011
5.56am
I was booked into hospital yesterday (14.06.11) 11 days overdue, at 8am to be induced.
Had 2 prostin pessaries, 6 hours apart then told I'd have to stay in to see what happened.
Had the most awful, uncomfortable nights sleep EVER.
This morning at 5.56am, I sat up and my waters went. So much water!! There must have been about 2 pints? And I'm still leaking a little bit now.
The midwife came to change my sheets and hooked me up to the monitor again to make sure
Lilly's ok. Seems I'm having some strong contractions according to the monitor, tho they're not painful yet.
Mark's coming up early, bless him. He's so excited. I'm kinda excited, mainly tired, hungry and glad something's happening.
I miss Shadow and Marian.
Left line: Lilly's heart, right line: my contractions.
Had 2 prostin pessaries, 6 hours apart then told I'd have to stay in to see what happened.
Had the most awful, uncomfortable nights sleep EVER.
This morning at 5.56am, I sat up and my waters went. So much water!! There must have been about 2 pints? And I'm still leaking a little bit now.
The midwife came to change my sheets and hooked me up to the monitor again to make sure
Lilly's ok. Seems I'm having some strong contractions according to the monitor, tho they're not painful yet.
Mark's coming up early, bless him. He's so excited. I'm kinda excited, mainly tired, hungry and glad something's happening.
I miss Shadow and Marian.
Left line: Lilly's heart, right line: my contractions.
Saturday, 11 June 2011
10 days overdue tomorrow.
I'm so done with this now.
I'm sore, SO uncomfy, stressed and haven't slept properly in months. I've just spent 15 mins trying to get comfy in bed. I can't. I want to scream. I want her out.
It's not that I even want to meet my baby (which I feel awful about) I just don't want to be pregnant any more. Mark is so excited and I don't really care right now. I just don't want her in me anymore.
I'm booked to be induced Tuesday and I'm petrified. The ONLY thing that I was ok about regarding giving birth was that I could have a waterbirth in the birthing centre.
If she doesn't come in the next 2 days and I'm induced it'll have to be a labour ward birth.
:(
Update:
I was having a really bad night when I wrote that. It's all true, but that was a bit of a huge rant.
Anyway, again, I know if she's not ready she won't come and that you can't plan a birth, and you have to just go with what's best.
I know that. All along I've wanted a birthing centre birth but I've said I'd do whatever I need to do. It's just because it's the home run now, it's so close and so real, to be honest I'm just really really scared of the pain but didn't want to have an epidural and the best way I thought I'd deal without one was water. I'm just full of hormones, soreness and I'm disappointed.
Come on Lilly. You have 2 days left.
I'm so done with this now.
I'm sore, SO uncomfy, stressed and haven't slept properly in months. I've just spent 15 mins trying to get comfy in bed. I can't. I want to scream. I want her out.
It's not that I even want to meet my baby (which I feel awful about) I just don't want to be pregnant any more. Mark is so excited and I don't really care right now. I just don't want her in me anymore.
I'm booked to be induced Tuesday and I'm petrified. The ONLY thing that I was ok about regarding giving birth was that I could have a waterbirth in the birthing centre.
If she doesn't come in the next 2 days and I'm induced it'll have to be a labour ward birth.
:(
Update:
I was having a really bad night when I wrote that. It's all true, but that was a bit of a huge rant.
Anyway, again, I know if she's not ready she won't come and that you can't plan a birth, and you have to just go with what's best.
I know that. All along I've wanted a birthing centre birth but I've said I'd do whatever I need to do. It's just because it's the home run now, it's so close and so real, to be honest I'm just really really scared of the pain but didn't want to have an epidural and the best way I thought I'd deal without one was water. I'm just full of hormones, soreness and I'm disappointed.
Come on Lilly. You have 2 days left.
Friday, 10 June 2011
41 +1
Hospital yesterday.
They monitored Lilly for half an hour and she's fine. They then scanned me to double check she's head down. She is, but not engaged.
The midwife then tried to give me a membrane sweep to start labour but she said my cervix is high and closed and she couldn't even feel Lilly's head.
She tried her best but I haven't had anything from it.
They also booked me in for an induction for Tuesday morning when I'll be 41 weeks +5 days. 12 days overdue. So....she'll definitely be here by Tues/Wednesday next week. I'm still hoping she just comes without intervention so we can use the birthing suite and pool.
I'm feeling sore. The stretch marks under my belly are big and ouchie. My ribs are being kicked a lot. Pelvis and hips are painful and I have heartburn all the time. Thanks to those things, I'm not sleeping well either.
Oh well. Not long then i'll have to find something else to whinge about.
They monitored Lilly for half an hour and she's fine. They then scanned me to double check she's head down. She is, but not engaged.
The midwife then tried to give me a membrane sweep to start labour but she said my cervix is high and closed and she couldn't even feel Lilly's head.
She tried her best but I haven't had anything from it.
They also booked me in for an induction for Tuesday morning when I'll be 41 weeks +5 days. 12 days overdue. So....she'll definitely be here by Tues/Wednesday next week. I'm still hoping she just comes without intervention so we can use the birthing suite and pool.
I'm feeling sore. The stretch marks under my belly are big and ouchie. My ribs are being kicked a lot. Pelvis and hips are painful and I have heartburn all the time. Thanks to those things, I'm not sleeping well either.
Oh well. Not long then i'll have to find something else to whinge about.
Wednesday, 8 June 2011
40wks +6
Just been to see the midwife. Lilly's head is still not engaged and my blood pressure is a little high. Got a hospital walk-in thing tomorrow morning to see if they can see why she's not getting ready.
Midwife said if my waters go and she doesn't feel like she's engaged, to go to the hospital straight away because 'cord prolapse' can happen.
She also said it could all just happen naturally at any time anyway and it's just a waiting game really.
Cant see my specialist cause his team are only Tuesday's and if i need to be induced it'd be this Tuesday coming cause that's when I'd be 12 days over so that's why they wanna see me sooner I think. Just incase I need to be induced.
Bleurgh.
And the midwife kept saying things like "she has a good sized baby on board too" and "yes, it's quite a large baby" I KNOW!!! I carry it round all day!!!
Midwife said if my waters go and she doesn't feel like she's engaged, to go to the hospital straight away because 'cord prolapse' can happen.
She also said it could all just happen naturally at any time anyway and it's just a waiting game really.
Cant see my specialist cause his team are only Tuesday's and if i need to be induced it'd be this Tuesday coming cause that's when I'd be 12 days over so that's why they wanna see me sooner I think. Just incase I need to be induced.
Bleurgh.
And the midwife kept saying things like "she has a good sized baby on board too" and "yes, it's quite a large baby" I KNOW!!! I carry it round all day!!!
Sunday, 5 June 2011
4.30am. 40wks +5
*yawn*
Whilst being pregnant and awake as much as asleep in the night, I've learnt that Mark talks a fair bit when he's sleeping.
Not big conversations, just snippets like "no, they can just go over there if you want" and boring stuff I try to remember but forget almost immediately.
I used to sleep walk and talk when I was little. Wonder if I still talk. The dogs do!
Anyway, I didn't actually have anything interesting to say, I was just awake, uncomfy and bored.
Hope you're all well. X
Whilst being pregnant and awake as much as asleep in the night, I've learnt that Mark talks a fair bit when he's sleeping.
Not big conversations, just snippets like "no, they can just go over there if you want" and boring stuff I try to remember but forget almost immediately.
I used to sleep walk and talk when I was little. Wonder if I still talk. The dogs do!
Anyway, I didn't actually have anything interesting to say, I was just awake, uncomfy and bored.
Hope you're all well. X
Saturday, 4 June 2011
:(
No sweep. They cant cause she's not even got her head engaged in my pelvis any more. Got another appointment Tues to see what's going on :(
Sweep
So I'm booked in for a midwife appointment at 11.30am this morning. They're going to offer me a membrane sweep which is an internal where they sweep the finger around inside between baby and cervix. This can release hormones which start labour. It can also do nothing at all!
It's also supposed to be a bit ouchy, or at least uncomfy.
I'm just having a bath while mark walks the dogs, then we'll head off.
Fingers crossed!
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It's also supposed to be a bit ouchy, or at least uncomfy.
I'm just having a bath while mark walks the dogs, then we'll head off.
Fingers crossed!
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Thursday, 2 June 2011
Due date.
So today was Lilly's due date.
It came and it went. Well, there's still an hour and 10mins to go, but unless a birthing miracle happens I think it's a safe bet to say she's late.
It's been a hard day for me today. I've been really emotional and close to tears all day long.
I'm tired and I want her out.
I slept badly and woke up to Lilly in the most painful, ridiculous position ever. It took me ages to get out of bed, and just as long to stand upright. It was so painful! So yeah, not a great start to the day.
I (stupidly, I know) feel guilty that Mark's taken this time off of work and she's late. Feel like it's my fault. I know she'll come when she's ready.
Actually, i know she's not even late yet seen as today's her DD, its just what with us thinking we'd need a caesarean 2 weeks ago, it kinda feels like she's late now cause we had a date in our heads.
Mark is amazing.
He's so so excited about meeting her and being a dad.
He's put up with all of my mood swings the past few months, and the last month he's been extra brilliant. As things have got harder for me he's been really looking after me. Giving me feet rubs, head rubs, extra cuddles.
We go together to take the dogs out twice a day and he walks extra slow even tho I know he really hates walking slow. He happily just takes them by himself too if I don't feel up to it and he deals with them all the time when we're at home.
Whenever I'm sad he'll properly chat to me about what's wrong and talks me round. I'm so lucky.
Right now I'm laying in bed and Lilly's moving round like an alien. I don't know how she has any room in there! I'm huge.
Anyway. We'll see what tomorrow brings.
X
It came and it went. Well, there's still an hour and 10mins to go, but unless a birthing miracle happens I think it's a safe bet to say she's late.
It's been a hard day for me today. I've been really emotional and close to tears all day long.
I'm tired and I want her out.
I slept badly and woke up to Lilly in the most painful, ridiculous position ever. It took me ages to get out of bed, and just as long to stand upright. It was so painful! So yeah, not a great start to the day.
I (stupidly, I know) feel guilty that Mark's taken this time off of work and she's late. Feel like it's my fault. I know she'll come when she's ready.
Actually, i know she's not even late yet seen as today's her DD, its just what with us thinking we'd need a caesarean 2 weeks ago, it kinda feels like she's late now cause we had a date in our heads.
Mark is amazing.
He's so so excited about meeting her and being a dad.
He's put up with all of my mood swings the past few months, and the last month he's been extra brilliant. As things have got harder for me he's been really looking after me. Giving me feet rubs, head rubs, extra cuddles.
We go together to take the dogs out twice a day and he walks extra slow even tho I know he really hates walking slow. He happily just takes them by himself too if I don't feel up to it and he deals with them all the time when we're at home.
Whenever I'm sad he'll properly chat to me about what's wrong and talks me round. I'm so lucky.
Right now I'm laying in bed and Lilly's moving round like an alien. I don't know how she has any room in there! I'm huge.
Anyway. We'll see what tomorrow brings.
X
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